1. |
Green Again
04:23
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There's a season to be held and there's a season to behold
It sure was warm at home, but now I'm thriving in the cold
This back and forth from spring to snow; this thorn inside my flesh
It keeps me stayed on hope whether it's more of you or less
I used to fear the day I'd leave
The loss of time together spent
Now your absence keeps me company
Because I know we'll meet again
When the hills remember green again
I'm recounting all the words we spoke when in the fields of war
My faith was nearly drained of blood, you forced me to endure
It's you pulling me along until I'm pulling you along
And it's a battle won together as the Spirit spurs us on
Through empty nights that make us sing
The desert dark His mercy bends
Into a garden bright with spring
As rain falls on the thirsty glen
Till the hills remember green again
And the watering Word
It will not leave us void
If we're struck down, we're not destroyed
And the storms I have heard
Are a prelude to green
Then grace brings life to everything
Then grace brings life to everything
Till waters drown in their own tide
When death has nowhere else to hide
And Love completes what He intends:
A holiness that never ends
A unity that will not rend
Where Love is all we comprehend
When the hills remember green again
When the hills remember green again
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2. |
There Are Others Here
04:41
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First laugh, quoted that chick flick
Knew we'd be bros from that day on
We waxed hours on friendship
That all foreshadowed what would come
You came from North Carolina
Not sure exactly what you'd done
Keep on, we could talk all night
And Waffle House doesn't close its doors
I ask you if you're alright
The plot only deepens more and more
We're both so complicated
But that's what empathy is for
And Irma turns the sky to fall, and all the streets are empty
For every tree that's bound to fall, but we can face her gently
Gently...
Gently...
Don't despair, don't disappear
There are others here with the same kind of fear
And not a one of us is right
There's a way through the storm, there's a hope in the night
Friend, when you're inconsistent
Cling to the One Who doesn't change
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3. |
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You've been missing for weeks
I think it's gonna rain
Leave the warmth of the house
See where you've run away
This ladder I have found runs to your sewer line
If I brave the underground, what do you think I'll find?
But it's your only way out
And it's my only way down
Look up
It's the only way out
I was calling your name into the darkest part
You'd rather dream in the rain than dwell in a shelterheart
But if affection's mundane
I'll keep close with every breath
I'd sooner be a son than be someone
Success is just as much a beggar in its death
This is the only way out
Grace is the only way out
Love is my only way down
And you keep going deeper
You're always looking around
For what can never be found
Downpour
I think you might drown
Don't want you to stay there
I want you to stay
My sad eyes are steady
Not gonna look the other way
You have to reach higher
This dream you have loved
It's not what you wanted
It's fire and flood
Whisper over the rain
Words never make it through
If it's all beauty and pain without the brutal truth
You've worn that cross on your neck
Would you let that cross wear you?
This is the only way out
Don't hide the only way out
God died
He went to the ground
It was the only way out
Bloodshed
My only way down
Dark red
Your only way out
My head won't rest for a crown
This is the only way
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4. |
You Lift My Head
03:57
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North of Castaic
I'm glad to have made it
I went to the Lord and asked for you by name
Holy dependence
To walk in remembrance
I wouldn't have asked if you hadn't the faith
Call when you're able
No, I'm not unstable
But it's still a war and I long for your voice
No fear of hell when
Despair has repellant
A friend with a sword and a heart full of joy
There
I'm weak
You caught me
All that I am's the blood that bought me
You saw to it that His love's not lost me
Fought for me every time you fought me
Am I ashamed?
Find righteous brothers
There's no shame in covers
The world can be cold but we don't have to freeze
So my feet were bruised till you
Helped me tie my shoes and you
Taught me to run in the Gospel of peace
Screaming on the cliffside
Barely believing on the cliffside
Inches from speeding off the cliffside
Just can't stop grieving life on this side
You aren't afraid to hear my soul cry
I'm not afraid to let you see it
And when you say we're safe in His side
You make it easy to believe it
You lift my head
When you come around
When you come around
You lift my head
When you come around
When you come around
You lift my head
When you come around
When you come around
You lift my head
When you come around
Will you come around?
Come around
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5. |
In Arms
02:03
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I confide as an older man
Not much older than when he began
That I carry the sword with a perilous grip
And a trembling heart
Only kept in these hands by unwavering hope
And my brothers in arms
I confide as an infant son
Night light on in a nightmare won
That I still call my friends
Like I ran as a child to my parents' bed
When I've nowhere to hide
Like You once had no place to rest Your head
I want to hold on
I want to fight as a man who did his best
I want to bleed out
For my friends in the field at love's behest
I want to be John
I want to lean like a kid against Your chest
And lean against the chests
Of those who lean against Your chest
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6. |
Pour Me Out
04:33
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I can feel the eyes of every ghost tonight
This loss isn't light
Can I run this race?
Carry heaven's face unkempt and unqualified?
But it's all I have left to tell them
"We'll be okay"
And what is the purpose if not for us to say:
I know where you are
This suffocating dark
I swear it's not too far
There's solace in the scars
So...
Pour me out cause I can't sleep
There's nowhere to run, no one to get through to me
I've never breathed so helplessly
No regard for my life, but I can't live lifelessly
I know
There's too many injured feet
To just leave them all dirty
But theirs are no more dark than me
How can I be deserving?
My friends haven't left but I'm so scared they're gonna leave
Caught between wanting to help and struggling to breathe
But maybe all this hurt I feel is meant to help me see
That they're all hurting
Anything to set a broken bone
Anything to help them get back home
I know where you are
I know where you are
Pour me out, an offering drink
There's nowhere to run, no one to get through to me
I've nowhere else to go but down
Won't drown, just breathe
You've placed my heart perfectly
To bear up someone else's pain
There is no greater love than
To dance in someone else's rain
Just to show how You've loved them
Anything to set a broken bone
Anything to help them get back home
We'll find alone was never quite alone
A closet monument, another's stone
And if being low is what it's gonna take
To sympathize with every single break
To hold them firm against the trembling wake
I'm happy to be poured out for their sake
Go on, I'm nothing
Crush me for their sake
I know You love me
Crush me for their sake
For Your...
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7. |
There's a Darkness
05:52
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If the bombs go off and I've no courage to hold fast
Promise me you'll leave
Keep a safe distance from the blast
I'm terrified I'll burden you the way I do myself
It's hard enough to self-destruct without destroying someone else
Cause there's a darkness deep inside of me
Brother, I can't keep it in
And how on earth can you console
This death-haunted heart in a world full of sin?
Wave after wave after wave after wave after...
I've told all my secrets
And I've faced all my darkest fears
But nothing seems to still the sadness
Nothing stops the tears
Cause there's a darkness deep inside of me
Lord, it's all too much to bear
The joy of "the already"
All but smothered by "not there"
Wave after wave after wave after wave after...
Whatever I decree
However they may flee
Wherever You may be
Let Love draw the darkness
Draw it out of me
When lusts betray this battered heart longing to be free
When seasons sworn to shape me make me timber from a tree
Let it all be brought to light
Behold the agony
Cause I need You to stay more than I don't want You to see
I need you to stay more than I don't want you to see
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8. |
God in the Flesh
05:52
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Three years of talking; I can't ask you more
You've fought hard in my trenches
But brother, I've not settled every score
I tend to pull the stitches
An episode of panic or an unforgotten sin
I know that I'm forgiven but it's hard to take it in
It's not that I don't trust
It's just I'm spinning in my head
Is all my doubt from grieving or are demons in my bed?
There on the cross our Savior bled and died
And death, it could not hold him
I feel so spoiled fearing every tide
That mercilessly rolls in
But who's beheld His blessed face?
I love Him but it's hard
Like I've seen so much heartache
But I've never seen my Heart
Then suddenly your laughter breaks
The tension of my fears
No catch behind your kindness
You're just gentle with my tears
And when you say you love me
I don't have to guess
Cause you're giving me glimpses
Of God in the flesh
God in the flesh
"Why the existential dread?"
I say, "Cause I exist"
I don't want to go on, but I don't want to go
It's madness or the mist
But when you speak the sky could fall
And I would hardly tell
The earth's the devil's only heaven
It's our only hell
Cause when you say you love me
I don't have to guess
And you're giving me glimpses
Of God in the flesh
Help me walk this ocean cause I'm sinking like a stone
But waves are where you come alive to make His mercy known
And when you speak His Words your skyward gaze becomes my own
The Lamb is on the throne, the Ghost is in my bones
The fury of His grace burns all the weeds that I had sown
And when the smoke has settled on the glory that He's shown
I look at you walking beside me
But really you're walking me home
And your last words still haunt me:
"I love you to death"
And these days are just glimpses
Of God in the flesh
God in the flesh
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9. |
Strange Roads
04:36
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Drove alone to Dawson County in the dead of night
If someone had called they’d wonder if I was alright
You were exorcising demons through a broken prayer
Had to leave the suburbs, had to know that You’re still there
Our quiet code
My abode
A strange road
Steve and I drove up to Blue Ridge on a sudden whim
Stretch of highway west of Dawson—somehow I’d not been
In uncharted territory, specified my sin
And in that moment it was only You despite my friend
My sure hope
Till he spoke
On strange roads
There are days when I feel nothing
That’s the way it is
If the Spirit was sensation, I’d be damned in this
But deeper magic dwells in me as my emotions miss
Cause passion can’t authenticate what nonetheless persists
You still hold
My numb soul
On strange roads
Is it strange that all the strange roads
Tend to feel the most like home?
No history, just mystery
And You and I alone
It's strange, it took this dreamlike state
No feeling in my bones
My hope secure when nothing’s sure
Except that I am known
Is it strange that all the strange roads
Tend to feel the most like home?
No history, just mystery
And You and I alone
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10. |
Hartsfield
01:50
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(instrumental)
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11. |
Newhall Song
03:08
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I can’t look you in the eyes
It's hard to keep composure on the other line
What I'm afraid to lay down in the meantime
If California calls our names then I could call you mine
And by mine if time allows our hearts to intertwine
But I don’t know if that’s where I want to go
If I stay, what weeds will grow?
Follow through, ever true
And I know taking up your cross
Ain’t fashionable anymore
But I still do...
Try for you
Woman, if I was scared
It wasn't you, I've always known
I'd have to kill the lesser dream
Before I'd bring you home
True love dies daily
To the fear that turns our hearts to stone
Right on cue, all things new
And I know making vows
Don’t seem too rational
Not anymore
But I still do...
Die for you
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12. |
73 in Silence
04:58
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When I have no one else but You
I’ll drive through Castaic
Halfway to Lake Hughes
I’ll take in the expanse of space
And weep
When I have no one else but You
You’ll probably find me all battered and bruised
Then I’ll go back to my new place
And sleep
Whom have I in heaven but You?
And who would I desire
If they were not ablaze with Your holy fire?
When I have no one else but You
I won’t feel conflicted
My friends won’t feel used
But I can’t hear without them here
Speak up
Cause what’s the point in all we do
If we all just crumble when no one’s in view?
Restore me when they’ve disappeared
In love
Whom have I in heaven but You?
And why am I alive
If I avoid the silence to survive?
Whom have I in heaven but You?
And who would I desire
If they were not ablaze with Your holy fire?
Why do I feel so alone?
Is there still such a thing as home?
Why do I feel so unknown?
When my greatest refrain is:
Whom have I in heaven but You?
And why am I so frail?
Have I run so far to only fail?
Whom have I in heaven but You?
Oh God, don’t cast me out
You’ve been my hope in faith
Now help my doubt
Whom have I in heaven but You?
You’ve bid this child come
Alone from Georgia sure of what You’ve done
Whom have I in heaven but You?
And where else should I be
If even now Your fire burns in me?
Now I have no one else but You
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13. |
Jesus in the Valley
03:17
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Lancaster, California sprawl
My friend was born in the hospital
I know nobody here at all
But I’m happy wherever You are
Over the hill where the city hides
After the road was the countryside
Laughed on the ridge as it met my eyes
I’m happy wherever You are
Windmills alight in the desert dark
Nothing like home, but it pricked my heart
Wherever I am is wherever You are
So I’m happy
Strange roads I have never trod
Always sneaking up on me
But with You, my Lord, my God
I’m right where I want to be
Let Your robe and let Your rod
Be my shelter in the valley
You are Love, and I am loved
And I want to love You more
You took me out to a stranger’s land
Barely could walk, so I took Your hand
As the hills bent to comfort this grieving man
Who’s happy wherever You are
I’m happy wherever You…
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14. |
Shelterheart
04:29
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The more you long for home
The more sorrow that you’re prone to
The less that you’re alone
The more funerals you go to
But don’t be afraid to reach up
Don’t be afraid to love and be loved
It's gonna take a lot of breaking to make it work
To cultivate a shelterheart
And put all our defenses in the dirt
It’s gonna take believing
That our grieving will authenticate our love
To say what we need to say
And never give it up
The more they learn your name
The more naked they will find you
The less you face that shame
The more guilt begins to bind you
So don’t be afraid to reach out
Don’t be afraid to doubt your dearest doubt
It's gonna take a lot of healing to make it work
To cultivate a shelterheart
And put all our defenses in the dirt
It’s gonna take exposing
That we’re holding too much pride inside our bones
Can you feel them waste away?
We’re all dying to be known
Let’s say what we need to say
To make this body safe
So the limbs can finally grow
The limbs can finally grow
Would we rather walk alone
Or walk each other home?
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15. |
Better Country
07:33
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Father, take me by my arm
Tomorrow I am westward bound
And home has never felt so far
But still my eastward soul resounds
We're going to the better country
We're going to the better country
Brother, find me when I'm lost
I need a stabilizing force
Help me stop to count the cost
I want to run a steady course
We're going to the better country
We're going to the better country
We're going to the better country
And even if we die before we see it
We'll still see it...
Now up there in the Nashville sky, I hear a humble sound
The first notes of a song that puts to dust what's on the ground
As the best of my ambitions turn to fiction where I'm found
I've seen my dreams come true in my own name
They left me disillusioned all the same
And as I start to disassociate
I whimper
out
my
weakness
while
I
wait...
Can you feel it?
Deep in your bones like an echo of home
When I walk, I can see it
Tracing my path every time I turn back
When we talk, I can hear it
Pour from your voice till you give me no choice
But to stay
Here in this night
Boldly to carry its light
And it burns me
Caught in its heat with my heart on repeat
I am so undeserving
When it comes on, I can see where I've gone
But I've grown and He's working
Loves me to rest with my head on His chest
So I pray
This won't be long
I'm still compelled to keep on
Can you feel it?
Deep in the woods can it be understood?
But it won't be defeated
Even in death there's a promise of breath
And this won't be repeated:
Dark basement rooms and the vision of tombs
Overcome
Darkness has died
Run till our rescue arrives
And the journey
Stretches for days turned to years turned to gray
With our hearts ever burning
Hope still in tow to Emmaus
The road doesn't part from the hurting
Glory's a weight and its gravity great
But it's real
Leave what's behind
Seek what's ahead and you'll find
Can you feel it?
Deep in your bones like an echo of home
When I walk, I can see it
Tracing my path every time I turn back
When we talk, I can hear it
Pour from your voice till you give me no choice
But to stay
Here in this night
Boldly to carry its light
Precious Jesus
Long have we run with our hearts tuned as one
To the sound
Will You meet us
Here on this street with our fears at Your feet?
But for now You will see us
Running like kids screaming out what You did
In the storm
Still taking heart
Last up the stairs in the dark
Still taking heart
Last up the stairs in the...
We're going to the better country
We're going to the better country
Yeah, we're going to the better country
And even if we die before we see it
We'll still see it
And even if we die before we see it
We'll still see it...
When we wake up
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